noone REALLY knows.... they all just say they do.
they dont care. they just act like it.

i feel like this is my only option to sort out everything. sad? yes, very.
i thought it would be easier down here, but its actually pretty damn frusterating. i wish men had a different thought process. i feel like that would make my life easier.

down here, noone knows me, so they have NO idea of the trials i have been through. they're so quick to judge! one thing i miss about fairbanks is that i had friends, who knew, and were there for me. Few, but the best. always had great ears and great advice. i miss them a lot.

people say to read books, have patience, go to counseling... i just want someone to listen? good lord, is that too much to ask? anyone out there? anyone at all?

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